Caroline will be four this weekend. I have never been so happy to celebrate a birthday in my entire life. After almost losing her last year to a strange infection there is not a day that goes by that I don't kiss her forehead, take in the scent of her hair and thank God for her life. Not just a fleeting thought that I'm so lucky to have her, but that I am truly thankful for her life.
I know that God chose her to walk down that difficult path last year as hard as it was on her and our family because He had a purpose. He used her in a mighty way to strengthen people's faith and prayer life. I know HE used my little girl and her illness to teach me some mighty lessons and stretch me personally. Yes, God, I have learned. Not only have I listened and learned but I have put those lessons into practice in my life.
But am I ever so grateful that this birthday I will not be sitting in her empty room crying. God left her here to live a life that will bring glory to His name. I have been given the charge of teaching her and guiding her to know her mighty creator. What a blessing.
Oh I love her so.
She is a bright ray of sunshine to our family everyday. She is funny and smart and sweet. She mothers her sisters oh so tenderly. Her gentle spirit is a constant reminder to me on how to live. She dances and sings through her days.
It sounds so cliche but I can't believe she is four. Seems like yesterday I rocked her tiny eight pound body, and held her close to my chest almost in disbelief that she was here and she was mine. After our ordeal last year I did the same thing just last night.
We baked cupcakes for her class this week. It is the first year she can crack the egg free from shells falling in the batter. She is growing up.
Needless to say, I don't take our precious time on earth together for granted anymore. As her birthday approaches I celebrate her life and all that God has planned for her. May I always hear His voice in leading and guiding her little life to point to our Savior in every way. May I teach her to have a thankful spirit regardless of circumstances, that dependence on God is the only way to enjoy an abundant life and that the peace of Christ flows freely from the throne of grace.
I am ready to blow up balloons, eat pizza, unwrap presents and chase Aubrey all around Ollie Koala's for her birthday party this weekend as we celebrate our sweet Caroline Noel. She will always be our best Christmas gift.
Happy Birthday my sweet girl. I love you so much it hurts at times.
Thank you Jesus.
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