Wow. What a week. School and activities starting up again. Papers to fill out. Supplies to purchase. Amid all of the hustle and bustle, I feel like I have failed as a parent this week.
The responsibility I feel to help my four daughters turn into God-fearing, responsible, kind and polite human beings overwhelms me at times. I feel like all day my lips are flapping away with reminders to pick up the wet towel off the floor, sit down in your seat when eating, don't hit your sister, watch your tone of voice, treat others kindly. I guess I figured by this time with my older ones, my rules and expectations would start to be ingrained in their heads. Nope. Not so. They still have to be reminded of many things and it's wearing me out. My Mama always says that if kids were born acting like 25 year olds they wouldn't need parents. So today I am hanging on to that.....
Yesterday, I woke up to Lucky Charms and milk all over my clean kitchen floor because "somebody" had decided to walk around while eating cereal. Really?! Throw me a bone here. My other "somebody" lied to me about hanging up her towel and putting her clothes in the hamper. They were found stuffed under the bathroom sink. I overheard my two year old screaming that she hates her sister. Hates..did she just say hates? Who says that? Where did she hear that? Fail.
I'll be honest, I guess because my main job is COO of Kneisley Inc. right now and all I do is pour everything I have into these 4 tiny humans, that when they make poor choices, I feel it. I really feel it.
I guess I know deep down one day it will click and they will get it...I hope and you'd better bet I pray.
I lost it on them yesterday before church and I was horrified at my behavior. Did I really give myself permission to act in such a way to my kids? What kind of example is that? No I didn't beat them and hang them from the ceiling by their toes...but I felt like it!
This is a new week. So for all of you mothers out there pressing away at the daily grind I'm thinking of you today. It's not easy and it certainly isn't easy to do it RIGHT!
So, I will be asking forgiveness for losing it yesterday. (They really did look at me like I was insane) Mom's need to say sorry when we act inappropriately too.
And as we say in our family...God grant me the patience to endure our blessings....all four of them;)
Well said Shannon! I find myself in similar situations with only 2. I frequently am blaming myself for any kind of ill feelingsl they share toward anyone. I've heard my children come up with things I've said and have to check myself. We are all human, the mommies and the children. We all have moments of feeling overwhelmed. We all need a time out (daily). It's hard not to 'feel' everything and not take it personal. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteSounds like Hell week just finished. We know the feeling. Maybe you and Ben should have more babies! HAHA!
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